Trying to Keep the Faith

Steve and I have been living in Austin for about 2 months now and I have been blessed to have some contract work with my old event planning company that I worked for during college. It has given us enough extra income to keep us sustained up until now. Unfortunately, it's not steady enough o have that be all I'm doing.

The job market is still really rough and even though Texas is much better off than most states, it's not a good time to need a job. I have been searching high and low, emailing just about every event venue in town and applying to catering, wedding and event companies but no one is hiring. 

I've had a couple interviews but they've all been for sales jobs and most either don't pay enough to live on or are purely commission based which makes me very uneasy. 

As I was leaving The Westin's lobby from an interview, a man ran after me to see what I was interviewing for and to offer me an interview as well. So I called him the next day and set up an interview. 

I was offered a sales job with a brand new KIA location in Round Rock. I'm scheduled to start next Monday. This is a very difficult thing for me to do; as in, to put what I'm passionate about, and frankly quite good at, on hold again. 

Sales scares me to death. The only reason I am taking the job is because I know I can't be selfish and refuse a job that will provide for my family. I pretty much get sick to my stomach any time I think about selling cars. 

I am hoping and praying that this is all for a reason, other than for the money. Because I'm not really very money driven. I, of course, will do what I have to do to support my family but if someone tells me I can make $100,000 a year doing something I hate or $35,000 doing what I love, I will take the later every time.

Anyways, that's not an option right now. 

Back to my point. I am trying my best to get into a positive mindset but I don't think I've gotten there yet. It's hard diving into this new adventure feeling like it doesn't add anything to my career. But I know that with anything I do, I'm going to learn at least one thing that will help me in the long run.

I need prayers that this will turn out to be at least mostly a positive experience that will help me get to where I'm going. I'm trying to put my faith in God leading me in this direction but I'm struggling with it.

I am so very thankful I have such a loving and supportive husband to help me through this next step. I would appreciate a few spare prayers to be sent my way to keep me positive in this journey.